##Note to self:

No point thinking about someone who doesnt make it to your future.

He/She is just a passerby who stop by halfway to rest at your stop.

Nice night out with jo and hy.

Then met jf on the way home.

Make my trip nicer than being alone.

He told me that driving license are actually important in life.

Work also as some emploers do look at driving license.

OMq, like that also can. think i must go learn driving liao.

How xuan? wan learn driving not? hhaha!

Well, chatted till reach home.

But it seems like this is just temporary.

After all the laughters and fun, its still back to reality agaain.

Read the rejection letter.

Again, i see disappointment painted on thier faces.

No matter how happy and confident i must act to be.

Im still...

Its not like i didnt try.

I need something like anything.

a msg? phonecall? visit? hug? tap? anything.

Its a long fight, myself.

Btw i dont know how my brother found this video but i think its super cool man!
All are beat box and no outside music. Cool ttm! HAHA!

Okay this maybe a long and disgusting post. So dont read if you dont want to. Its not appealing at all. lol!

IM SO FKING LATE FOR EVEYTHING! i just got to know that appeal for SMU starts like eons years ago and i didnt know cos when i go and check, i didnt see that "online appeal" word. Omg. How can this happen? i thought im so preapared but im not! im at loss now. Only now im asking for help and i really really really really really really really really hope that the teachers are suddenly free to help me. gosh. I hope my SAT score which is release today would score super well so that it will help in my appeal. Sianess TTM. I hope my boss will come work today so i can plead him to help me write a letter too, though i only came here for like a month plus. But the more the merrier i think. Please please please. My future is on a paper, provided by a uni, appealing thru teachers. So teachers and whoever can help me please help me. Im totally lost. What can i do with a PSLE score and Olevel certificate? NOTHING, cos im not a rich man's daughter. So i pray hard, cross fingers that god will bless me and help me. Hope im not late for anything. Yes, many hopes but i hope(again) everything will go smoothly. please. The most wait for another year? NO! That cannot happen. Hang on zhimin, you can do it. You know it. You have got the score you want but just a small part that is within your reach. Now, you got to stand up and relax~ Stop thinking of alternatives but go and get what you alwasy wanted. Which is within your capabilities. You know it! Just do well, sad enuff, your life is determined by a stupid paper. =.= But well, cant help. this is the society. No paper, you're out unless you have talent, abilities, money, luck or you are just fated to be successful. But i dont think i have all these, cos im just another girl next door. Please god, help me. I thank you for helping me all these while. Always meeting people and talking t people whom might help me. I guess you make them found me. I have this family which teaches me alot. (Y) totally. This religion which really helps me alot. Chracter wise or learning things. (Y) I meet all my girlfriends to help me pass great time tgt and also always there for me. love them lots. They are an important part of my life, seriously. Mayb there are conflicts here and there but we still love each other. (Y) I met a guy, who is another important part of my life. He's the one who make me a vegetarian. He's the one who helps me pull thru examinations, sad part, happy part, disgusting part, lame part of my life. I really love him alot, alot. But i guess i haven learn how to love somebody and anxiously go and love somebody that in turn hurt him? Even thou i still miss him, but i guess he's happier now and that i shall not go and disturb him. Mayb im still not ready to go and love somebody, yet. But i've learn something outta this and grown up by abit alr. This is parts and parcels of life i suppose? But i do hope sometimes that something will happen. lol! I dont care if you think im disgusting/kou shi xin fei or what. Or like dong this is useless and stupid. Or im just another joke in your life. Den you just laugh ba. Just want to let things out here. But i guess you wont be reading this anw, so its fine. :) People who know him dont go and tell him, thank you. :x That time i was deciding to take SAT not, and finally i decided not to. But i met Nic who is taking SAT! Like just before the closing date! how cool. Thank god. :) When im doing nothing, Hy suddenly told me that i need to go appeal. Omg, and lucky its still okay. Cos i think i have a slim chance in getting into SMU. so well, over jiu over. Mayb this is god's decision. Im fortunate to have things coming to me outta sudden and help me. So i shall not complain much cos i seems know what to do when times come. I guess letting nature take its courses do has a benefit. i realised i dont have a new year resolution cos i think its redundant but i guess its impt somehow. mayb i should try to make a life resolution. Doing all those things before i die/ end of the world. lol! But i guess playing comes first. LOL! You guys are great to read till here man. Laugh out loud (Y). Thanks for wasting your time on my cranks. I feel alot better and standing up now. Lucky PMS is over. if not i'll go crazy. lol! Alrights! Time to go research on anything possible. Those who reads this whole chunk good for you cos now you know you need to go appeal FAST and NOW! if you dont know yet. Those who know alr, good for you. haha! I think im kinda dumb to ask you guys to do that t make my chance slimmer. but who cares. Whats yours is yours, whats not yours it'll never be yours. (ps, but you can fight for it, HAHA)

Disgusting eh. I think i may not even read a second time. its damn super wordy. lol!
Ciao~ And have anyone realised, half a year is gone just like that? You just celebrated CNY and its coming again. Times flies super fast. My mum told me after 18 years old. time will fly super fast and i feel so too. :/ I dont like this feeling man.

- I can’t change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination.” ~ Jimmy Dean -

Phew, sorry lack of post these few days cos im not free at home!

I'll do it in office then. So there wont be any piccas ba.

My life nowadays is rather normal.

Except sat. LOL! went cdans w Sq, gary and kc t sing but not open!

Cheater bug~~ lol! lucky xuanies came t save the day!

Played mahjong at her house and won abit. :)

But was guilty cos we go there lend her table jiu leave! LOL!

ps ah! next time bu chang k? (L)(L)

Hehe. Mj session soon please~~ :D:D

Okok, Then sun was vegetarian food fair. was damn tired but fun!

Success too! hehe, hope there is another one soon. :)

Soo many food, ps means lots of calories. LOL! :x

Well, its in my stomach alr anw.

Since my mama dont lemme out these few days cos i keep going out for the past week,

stayed home after work till now. LOL!

Dont care, im going out alr. lol!

Anw, mood was kinda bad these few days and i finally know the reason!

P-M-S. =.=

Totally,

it gets girls emotionally unstable.

Pissed off at the smallest things.

Make girls make rash decision during the period.

Gets emo for nothing? lol!

Guys wont understand man!

And aftermath is also not hao guo. lol! well, whatever, i still like being a girl. HA!

Anw, letters are making me more and more nervous. :x

Im scared to receive anything now.

God bless me please.

WOOHOO!

Finally got mood to upload abit of piccas. lol!

ok ba, yupp this is the sqag me and my sister made

for my mama for Mothers' Day!

Yum right! haha! *self consoling*

But its nice! :)

Last two pictures are the mi hun kuey made on the same day! :)

Hehe, love cooking. LOL!

End the post with narcism. LOL!

Ciao. :)

Night all! Been lacking of sleep nowadays. :x

I hate it, the reality,

just so much that i hope

I can strangle it,

Chop it,

Mince it,

Blend it,

whatever you can do,

and eat you all up.

You know you suck, seriously, like BIG TIME.

Just scram asshole.

at least for the moment, thanks.