Failure

Something that is untouchable but can be felt so much. Bf asked and somehow begged me to watch Rocky 1-6. And somehow i'm grateful for that. Still left with 6. And something Rocky said made me hairstand. Not sure if bf made it so. Neways here goes:

“Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and I don’t care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life.

But it ain’t about how hard you hit; it’s about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. . It’s How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done.

Now, if you know what you’re worth, then go out and get what you’re worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hits, and not point fingers and blame other people. Cowards do that and that ain’t you. You’re better than that!”

Imma coward, for now. I cant do well for test. Cos i want to excel, far too much that it is putting unecessary pressure to myself that i can't perform. I knew I know. But in the end I dont know. What to do? Suck thumb and move on. Cos sometimes we just dont have a second chance.

Life's short to think about so much things.

New haircut

Had a new haircut! :)

Addiction

Current Addiction - Drama named Grey's Anatomy.

All thanks and credit to le bf. Now I know why he ignore me cos of that show.

An amazing show showing life. Yes, just life.

How life sucks.

How life rocks.

How life is pathetic while amazing.

Practically all about life. 

Love, hate, trust, family and friends. EVERYTHING.

It got me thinking about life too.

How great would it be if i am pretty, rich and everything nice like Powerpuff Girls.

How great would it be if I just need to ENJOY. 

Simple 5 letter word with much complications.

Life is an addiction. 

We all want it to be nice and all but it always don't when you want it. #irritatingmuch

Sometimes I console/psycho myself that we shouldn't think too much into things that may not exist.

Like for example, just an example. 

Prolly I am a child taken from xxx garbage cos I look different from my siblings.

Or, maybe my one-yr-old bf don't love me (it's not).

Or maybe, I am a guy? (wtf)

Okay, getting outta point but ya. Life do sucks, but after all  it's precious and we should make the best outta it. Yes, we should take control and not let heartbeat controls it.

Life is fragile. 

Tired.

Probably I should write a diary on this, every episode gives me something.

Today, is about seconds. Seconds does wonders and they counts.

So, stop wasting it.

A day to be remembered

Seriously have to jot down this today so that when i read back, I will remember anything at all. 

Just an excuse to vent out words cos idk who to tell.

Today was a bad day for me. 

Not because my phone went crazy and changed the passcode itself. (Like wth). 

Not because my phone went crazy and stuck in DFU mode for freaking long time.

Not because of my phone and I wasted entire day to fix it and I didnt study again.

Just simply sad.

I know I shouldn't be writing this or thinking about this. 

But well, we are humans afterall.

But I guess I will forget it pretty soon and I'm sure you've forgotten it already.

Probably I'm just nothing at all. 

#wordshurt

GREETINGS!

HELLO! It's been long since i last blogged! Sudden fweeling~.

Anws, just ended camp! It was full of laughter and fun! 

Whatsapp spam, the sickness aftermath was kinda worth it? :):)

Since its the first post outta donkey years, I need some time to get the hang outta it. Shall end a short post for today. Le man has gone to sports camp and am missing him much! He'll be back soon! :)

 <3

Being sick for a week, I realized how fragile life can gets. Yes, only get to know until now. 21 years of my life. And that I have to treasure the ones I love, family, le man and all my beloved friends. 21, I am 21! Can't get the fact that I am legally able to do anything I want. Cos, I want to be a kid, always! :(

Kids don't have any worries. Now, I have to think ahead of everything I do. Even falling in love. But, things will be well! I know, I will and I believe.

Holidays will end in 2 weeks time! Hope I can get that few days job! Please, please, please! 

Signing off with a bigass face of mine. Boo!

New Step ahead

Its been long since i last post and i guess there ain't any viewers so YES! It's my dairy! :)

Well, life has been really hectic, as I nua-ed a lot and thats bad. There is so little time and so much stuff to be done! Commitment level is higher! Wish I am still in primary school and my only commitment is - study.

Uni life is great! Friends, fun, study and stress. Need to get use to the fast pace real soon.

Anw, its the recess week, which means a week to catch up with everything. Though it seems bad, but am happy I stayed home/school to catch up w stuff. :/ 

Come to think of it, I'm really not sure myself if i'm walking the right path. Going into uni and stuff. Is it a waste of time?If I were to just complete my ACCA and get a job. Would it be a better choice? Cos if not I'm wasting my time, energy and my parent's hard-earned money in Uni. Anws, I had taken the first step and so I guess I have to complete it. I always do!

I really hope to end this sem soon and go for a breather! Taiwan! :):)

I CAN DO IT. I MUST DO IT. I HAVE TO DO IT.

This is parts and parcels of life.

Empty

Thinking of a good post name is real hard as many said and so i shall just skip that step. And yes! I'm finally posting cos I'm suddenly free (cos I'm in office now). So yeap. Let me see. Have not been posting much and so I dont know how to start the ball rolling again.

Well, life is pretty mundane due to exams, again. And got pretty demotivated with my current involvement, which is bad. Then came another round of decision making, which sucks. Then came another kind of decision making, which turns out okay? And yeap. That's it?

 Sometimes I wonder how should we live our lifes. 

Do we just start by crying then to crawling, walking, running, walking with difficulties and then to wheelchair and then to just laying there( dead. -.-)?

Like from toddler to child to kid to teen to young adult to adult to old age?

And from primary school to secondary school to pre-u to University?

And like taking PSLE, Olevels/Nlevele/ITE , Dip/Alevels to Uni?

We can just skip any of the stages right? Can we afford to? Is it acceptable? Is it like bring ABNORMAL?

What do you mean by being successful in life?

How about meaningful? Or like living life to the fullest?

Why do we need to have our PSLE cert, Olvl cert, Alvl cert and lastly a degree?

*Shrugs*

Life is complicated, as such.

Guess I'm too focused on following the railway track that I missed the pretty scenery around.