FU*K

DON'T FUCKING VISIT THE HOSPITAL IF YOU THINK YOU SHOULD.

GO ONLY IF YOU THINK YOU MUST!

FTH!

Hatred!

Somehow I hate being myself, so much so that i wished that I would be born and live once again.
Hates being a Gemini sometimes cos Geminis tend to be lazy. And I'm one of them.
Hates being such a bad person cos I alws seem say the wrong things at the wrong times unintentionally.
Hates being such a lousy prevaricator.
Hates not being veracity towards myself.
Hates for not knowing what I actually want.
Hates doing things that I dont mean to and regret afterwards.
Hates going out but have to face the aftermath at home.
Hates for being so penurious sometimes when its not the time.
Hates for a lot of things which I cant think of now.

Sorry for all those who are affected either way. I'll change, I hope. Need some inceptions.

In a delirium mood!

Today is Thursday! Okay, I'm lame. Going to have a lame post as I have nothing much to post. Yesterday was my unluckiest day ever and thus I would like to post on this amazing Wednesday I have had. Its going to be full of words so you can stop here if you want.

Morning was lesson, as usual, we were late for like 30 minutes. =.= Then lesson ended, huiyi went to some other place while I decided to drop by her house first before she join me again. Trained to Clementi to "da bao" rice and took 52 to huiyi's house. Everything was still normal. Then came some unluckinest(if there's such word), I ordered mixed rice containing rice, curry vegetables, kangkong and MOCK fish. Okay, this particular mock fish actually had some smelly fish smell (called yu xin wei in chinese). It was super awful! Gobbled it up cos the veges are kinda less and I'm damn hungry. Then after that, huiyi came home with Lemin and they started making tiramisu and I joined in the fun. So we poured the thick cream into the pot with melted chocolate and stir stir stir. Huiyi was curious and so she took some out to taste and i tasted it too! Well, after awhile, I got bored looking at them stirring so I went out to check on the ingredients they bought so I can make tiramisu myself next time. To my dismay, the thickened cream contains GELATINE! OMG! I WAS DUMBFOUNDED! LOL! A CREAM ACTUALLY CONTAINS GELATINE? ROAR. Lucky i only lick a lil. But still :( This may probably be the reason why I'm so suay after that.

So they continued making the tiramisu while I continue studying. Since I have driving lesson at 7.20, left at huiyi's house at 7(Okay, I know confirm late but heard that the driving lesson will be super boring right!) Board the bus, Alight the bus and TADAH! I went the wrong direction and walked into the practical lesson place. -.- FML, Got to walk back (take note, Im late alr) all the way to the MAIN entrance. LOL! Found the notice board and found the classroom. The lesson was okay probably due to my subconsious mind thinking that the lesson would sucks but it turned out okay. Then this super friendly Malay neighbour who was sitting beside me the whole lesson asked me if I'm going to attend the next lesson which was immediately after my current lesson. As there was a part 2 immediately after the part 1 lesson. I was kind of angry why I didnt booked that 2nd lesson so I can take both lessons at a go! :x As I was having headache, and I'm "partially deaf" those kind of people. I kept "huh-ing'" the nice girl and eventually gave a weird and sacarstic look. OMG, kill me please, I didnt mean it! It was uncontrollable. The girl was in a predicament due to my weird behaviour decided to say nvm and left. =.= P/S I DIDNT MEAN IT THAT WAY! SORRY IF YOU WERE TO CHANCE UPON MY PATHETIC BLOG! :(

Okay, lesson ended so I decided to take the bus instead of taking the train. Thus, I tried crossing the road but the road was full of speeding vehicles! Cars, motorcycle and lorries etc. So i cant take the bus just opposite bbdc and decided to go another bus stop to take another bus. Walked kinda long to reach the bus stop. A bus came when i was near the bus so I ran to chase the bus. Again! I took the wrong bus. -.- I wanted to go westmall. The bus I took will turn one big round before heading to westmall, Yay to distance fare! :x ON TOP OF THAT, I was stared by a primary school girl and she "DIAO-ED ME!" WHAT THE HELL. THANKS SO MUCH FOR MAKING MY WONDERFUL DAY. What a total failure to get diao-ed by someone who's probably 10 years younger than you . Hooray! (Y)

Reached westmall and took 178 home. There was this couple right in front of me cuddling and hugging. Because I'm biased, I hated this unless I'm attached. So I tweeted about it and after that another couple boarded the bus, sat beside me and cuddled each other TOO. =.= Reached home and finally have some peace.

Well, today started off bad cos I missed the company's bus! The bus went straight pass before me and I cant do anything! Travelled to company by public transport took super long and its expensive. Hai. Sad day yesterday was brought forward to today. Hope I will have a nicer day later please! :(

Sorry for the long and vapid post! Just want to rantle out to feel better. Argh. I know all those things weren't unluckiness but purely my fault for not being sagacious. But well, its a matter of perspection. Blaming "lucky" for this predicament I've had. How was your day? LOL!

#225

Need to winnow my thoughts and move to serenity. In order to be sagacious, one needs to settle down in a nonchalant mood so as to think things through. I need to change myself and my mind. Bleah. Random thoughts~

Monday.

Yay! Its a Monday! HAHA! So ironic.


I have decided that i would love to have this hair colour! Anyone know what is this hair colour? :x Hehe.

Food for thought(for myself): Our lecturer once told us that "In life, we must plan." He had already planned for his retirement and what he's going to do. Everything in his life are planned. To the extend that if he's able to plan for his next life, he would. He also said that, "People who do not plan thier lives are equivalent to animals because animals do not plan." Guess other than communication and a witty brain, having the ability to plan is probably one of the many differences that differentiate animals from us, humans. So i fathom over this and tried to pre-meditate. To my dismay, I found that I have no dreams, no goals (except short-term ones like losing how much weight etc.) and no nothing. I dont believe in planning or anything as people change from time to time and so does the environment. What for having a dream that may be left unrealised. Whenever i do have a goal or something, there will sure be something that will impede and make me feel discouraged. Or maybe I'm not pertinacious enough, but well, that's me. :x Life is like that isn't it? Full of surprises be it good ones or bad ones. Why should we plan? Planning and contemplating about my future would probably just burst my head. I hate it. I need instructions or some kinda hints that god could give to lead me on the right track. What should I do to know some answers? Life for me is kind of mundane till now, no achievements, just nothing. And I'm reaching 21! Ohmygawd. I dont feel like living just to die man. Lead me on god. Tell me what I should do, i beg you. At least, tell me what i want.

Just booked my first BTT lesson! Okay, I know Im lousy. But just watch! Zhimin's gonna Drink and Drive! HAHAHA!

Not Much Determination Left

to exercise! omygawd. T.T

The Love Of My Life.

Went for cousin's ROM with family(excluding brother as he will be having his examination the next day, which is today) on 10/10/10. Yes, on this very auspicious day, my cousin became a wife. :) The location was at NSRCC, which is the old Safra Resort near Changi Close Drive or something. The environment was so nice that there are 5 weddings/ROMs going on. Omg, i was shocked when i heard this. Our neighbours were mostly newly weds! LOL! Everywhere was filled with balloons! (Y)(Y)



Camwhored with sister before setting off to the far far away land at Tanah Merah! LOL!





Mummy and Daddy! HAA! Rare chance to take pictures with them man! lol! Love them much! :)Thanks for taking care of me for the past 19 plus years and more to come! hahaha! Ops! Took lotsa photos till they scolded me! :/ But it was really kinda bored cos we weren't very close with the family. As in me and my sister, not my parents. So we can only camwhore while the adults talk right? Bleah :o





Group photo! :D:D The bride was really beautiful and her gown was like OMG! LOL! Anw, the bride's sister was married on 07/07/07. So cool right! So after knowing this,
Sister says: " Jiejie, you choose this kinda date to get married also la! Like so cool hor!"
But i realised that the last year this can happen will be like 12/12/12. =.= After which, we must wait for another 1000 years!!! Like 3001 for 01/01/01 and etc. LOL! So i cant make this happen! :( If not i must get married like at the age of 21? =.= Hai, if only i was born like a few years early! :/



Zhimin is learning driving, like finally! Woohoo!! :D:D

A Little Update.

HARLOW! A little update. Photos expired like long ago and i feel so lazy to upload pictures to fb. :x Orights! First was Autumn Festival! (Zhong Qiu Jie in Chinese). It was an awesome night with Youth group @ Taman Jurong! :D:D (Missing yupin though. :x)



Okay, this cutie pie was SUPER CUTE! SUPER means like SUPER DUPER ULTRA MEGA TETRA! LOL! She was playing with Jy's doggie. Ya'll know dogs like to stick out thier tongue every now and then, i think its cos they needa do tt so as to cool down thier body temperature or something. Not v sure if this is true, but if you'll are interested can just pop by google. :) Okay, about the sticking out tongue part, this cuite pie actually mimic the dog and stick out her tongue to lick the dog! Omg, damn effing cute. Luckily we stop her just in time. :x But just imagine her face and tongue and action. HAHA! Had a pic of her doing that but well, wasnt very clear due to flash. soooo, SORRY! :(



Heart done by the three musketeers namely xl, ch and my brother. =.= Shock right! This heart is done by 3 BOYS. LOL! The heart was damn pretty compared to ours as seen below. Omg. Failure. But took a long time to clear their mess. LOL! The amount of candles is just so much!



Did a love shape for Yp dear! :D:D Cannot compare man. :x



Yp's little brother SB!!!! He's damn shy and cute! Can fight with the cutie pie above. haha! Mayb they make a good couple. HAHAHA! Jkjk. :P



Okay then was mich and jj's bday celebration! Met jo earlier to collect the cake. The other photos are all on fb. :) The last pic is epic man, tried smiling w/o teeth, but fail. =.= My face like got cramp man. lol!



A little paiseh to say this but well, ytd was the first time i tried KOI at bugis! Omg, damn suaku. :x Ytd's queue was shorter so decided to buy and i took only like 20mins to have the KOI drink on my hand. Awesome! :D I think its due to the timing. Bought at like 3plus? LOL! For those who want to try, can try buying KOI at this time for a shorter queue. And it was nice man! Me love, zhen shi ming bu xu chaun. Sorry diet! :x One day of relaxation from diet... its okay la hor. Heehee. After getting KOI, went lunch with sister. Ate curry noodles while sis had fish head noodles. Bleah! Sinful i know but for just one day ya? :S hee! Anw, i bought a dress which is super expensive! (SADDEDDDD) Actually, its not really expensive but just happen tt we saw the exact same dress at a different place which cost 5 dollars cheaper tts why. :( Overall, nice shopping day with sister! :D Awaiting ROM for my cousin i think which is held on sun. :)



And of cos, i camwhored. :X Hows me w/o fringe? HAHA! i have high forehead so pardon me for cutting my head off. LOL!



Zhimin is a camwhore freak. lol! Ciao! Am meeting fanny later for a lil "ketchup". teehee! :):):)

P/S I'm craving for ikea(tampanies)'s dark chocolate cake, honeystar with milk, frolick, KOI and mac's milkshake. Oh man T.T

SAD

IM SAD, REAL SADDDD. :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(

DONT ASK ME WHY.

FML, TTM.