##Note to Self:

We are always waiting to rush and rushing to wait.

Its a cycle that we cannot prevent.

Wee! im like so relax alr!

Called everything and settled appointment then done proposals etc.

Phew, im finally waiting to rush again.

Preparing hongkong trip. Total yayness! :D:D:D

Hope it wont pao tang after discussing so much. :/

but still, i will go de! haha! nice to have sibei on friends. ha!

everyone is like so eggcited. wee. :):)

Life is norm for me except that i keep gg out. :x

but well, who cares. was stressed up by uni and future.

Cmon man! my colleague told me:

Dont regret the past,

Enjoy the present;

and hope for the future.

So im gna enjoy the present. haha! :p

Going to sing k tmr again!

And you guys just relax k, when you have the time. haha!

k la, Ciao. :0

Hope my clothes come tday! wee.

##Note to self:

No point thinking about someone who doesnt make it to your future.

He/She is just a passerby who stop by halfway to rest at your stop.

Nice night out with jo and hy.

Then met jf on the way home.

Make my trip nicer than being alone.

He told me that driving license are actually important in life.

Work also as some emploers do look at driving license.

OMq, like that also can. think i must go learn driving liao.

How xuan? wan learn driving not? hhaha!

Well, chatted till reach home.

But it seems like this is just temporary.

After all the laughters and fun, its still back to reality agaain.

Read the rejection letter.

Again, i see disappointment painted on thier faces.

No matter how happy and confident i must act to be.

Im still...

Its not like i didnt try.

I need something like anything.

a msg? phonecall? visit? hug? tap? anything.

Its a long fight, myself.

Btw i dont know how my brother found this video but i think its super cool man!
All are beat box and no outside music. Cool ttm! HAHA!

Okay this maybe a long and disgusting post. So dont read if you dont want to. Its not appealing at all. lol!

IM SO FKING LATE FOR EVEYTHING! i just got to know that appeal for SMU starts like eons years ago and i didnt know cos when i go and check, i didnt see that "online appeal" word. Omg. How can this happen? i thought im so preapared but im not! im at loss now. Only now im asking for help and i really really really really really really really really hope that the teachers are suddenly free to help me. gosh. I hope my SAT score which is release today would score super well so that it will help in my appeal. Sianess TTM. I hope my boss will come work today so i can plead him to help me write a letter too, though i only came here for like a month plus. But the more the merrier i think. Please please please. My future is on a paper, provided by a uni, appealing thru teachers. So teachers and whoever can help me please help me. Im totally lost. What can i do with a PSLE score and Olevel certificate? NOTHING, cos im not a rich man's daughter. So i pray hard, cross fingers that god will bless me and help me. Hope im not late for anything. Yes, many hopes but i hope(again) everything will go smoothly. please. The most wait for another year? NO! That cannot happen. Hang on zhimin, you can do it. You know it. You have got the score you want but just a small part that is within your reach. Now, you got to stand up and relax~ Stop thinking of alternatives but go and get what you alwasy wanted. Which is within your capabilities. You know it! Just do well, sad enuff, your life is determined by a stupid paper. =.= But well, cant help. this is the society. No paper, you're out unless you have talent, abilities, money, luck or you are just fated to be successful. But i dont think i have all these, cos im just another girl next door. Please god, help me. I thank you for helping me all these while. Always meeting people and talking t people whom might help me. I guess you make them found me. I have this family which teaches me alot. (Y) totally. This religion which really helps me alot. Chracter wise or learning things. (Y) I meet all my girlfriends to help me pass great time tgt and also always there for me. love them lots. They are an important part of my life, seriously. Mayb there are conflicts here and there but we still love each other. (Y) I met a guy, who is another important part of my life. He's the one who make me a vegetarian. He's the one who helps me pull thru examinations, sad part, happy part, disgusting part, lame part of my life. I really love him alot, alot. But i guess i haven learn how to love somebody and anxiously go and love somebody that in turn hurt him? Even thou i still miss him, but i guess he's happier now and that i shall not go and disturb him. Mayb im still not ready to go and love somebody, yet. But i've learn something outta this and grown up by abit alr. This is parts and parcels of life i suppose? But i do hope sometimes that something will happen. lol! I dont care if you think im disgusting/kou shi xin fei or what. Or like dong this is useless and stupid. Or im just another joke in your life. Den you just laugh ba. Just want to let things out here. But i guess you wont be reading this anw, so its fine. :) People who know him dont go and tell him, thank you. :x That time i was deciding to take SAT not, and finally i decided not to. But i met Nic who is taking SAT! Like just before the closing date! how cool. Thank god. :) When im doing nothing, Hy suddenly told me that i need to go appeal. Omg, and lucky its still okay. Cos i think i have a slim chance in getting into SMU. so well, over jiu over. Mayb this is god's decision. Im fortunate to have things coming to me outta sudden and help me. So i shall not complain much cos i seems know what to do when times come. I guess letting nature take its courses do has a benefit. i realised i dont have a new year resolution cos i think its redundant but i guess its impt somehow. mayb i should try to make a life resolution. Doing all those things before i die/ end of the world. lol! But i guess playing comes first. LOL! You guys are great to read till here man. Laugh out loud (Y). Thanks for wasting your time on my cranks. I feel alot better and standing up now. Lucky PMS is over. if not i'll go crazy. lol! Alrights! Time to go research on anything possible. Those who reads this whole chunk good for you cos now you know you need to go appeal FAST and NOW! if you dont know yet. Those who know alr, good for you. haha! I think im kinda dumb to ask you guys to do that t make my chance slimmer. but who cares. Whats yours is yours, whats not yours it'll never be yours. (ps, but you can fight for it, HAHA)

Disgusting eh. I think i may not even read a second time. its damn super wordy. lol!
Ciao~ And have anyone realised, half a year is gone just like that? You just celebrated CNY and its coming again. Times flies super fast. My mum told me after 18 years old. time will fly super fast and i feel so too. :/ I dont like this feeling man.

- I can’t change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination.” ~ Jimmy Dean -

Phew, sorry lack of post these few days cos im not free at home!

I'll do it in office then. So there wont be any piccas ba.

My life nowadays is rather normal.

Except sat. LOL! went cdans w Sq, gary and kc t sing but not open!

Cheater bug~~ lol! lucky xuanies came t save the day!

Played mahjong at her house and won abit. :)

But was guilty cos we go there lend her table jiu leave! LOL!

ps ah! next time bu chang k? (L)(L)

Hehe. Mj session soon please~~ :D:D

Okok, Then sun was vegetarian food fair. was damn tired but fun!

Success too! hehe, hope there is another one soon. :)

Soo many food, ps means lots of calories. LOL! :x

Well, its in my stomach alr anw.

Since my mama dont lemme out these few days cos i keep going out for the past week,

stayed home after work till now. LOL!

Dont care, im going out alr. lol!

Anw, mood was kinda bad these few days and i finally know the reason!

P-M-S. =.=

Totally,

it gets girls emotionally unstable.

Pissed off at the smallest things.

Make girls make rash decision during the period.

Gets emo for nothing? lol!

Guys wont understand man!

And aftermath is also not hao guo. lol! well, whatever, i still like being a girl. HA!

Anw, letters are making me more and more nervous. :x

Im scared to receive anything now.

God bless me please.

WOOHOO!

Finally got mood to upload abit of piccas. lol!

ok ba, yupp this is the sqag me and my sister made

for my mama for Mothers' Day!

Yum right! haha! *self consoling*

But its nice! :)

Last two pictures are the mi hun kuey made on the same day! :)

Hehe, love cooking. LOL!

End the post with narcism. LOL!

Ciao. :)

Night all! Been lacking of sleep nowadays. :x

I hate it, the reality,

just so much that i hope

I can strangle it,

Chop it,

Mince it,

Blend it,

whatever you can do,

and eat you all up.

You know you suck, seriously, like BIG TIME.

Just scram asshole.

at least for the moment, thanks.

Thoughts just flow through my mind when im alone,

alone in the bus on the way to work,

alone in the bus going home,

alone at home when im the first to reach home,

alone when i go jogging.

Hate being alone, but i suppose its the time i can relax and sort things out.

But thanks to music that fills another part of my mind,

thanks for the msgs i received from all the lovely friends when i wake up,

or throughout the days. :)

i guess..

Oh yea, ytd was Mothers' Day.

We made mi hun kuey for religion class, cooking lesson 2!

It was damn nice!

Then, Me and sissy made vegetarian caborano spaghetti (if its spelt like this) for dinner.

Was damn nice and i know mama was damn happy.

I think i have the habit of making food/things for the ones i loved?

Ps, dont think i dont love you if i seems to haven make anything for you,

mayb im shy? not free? going to have? or other VALID reasons. haha!

Will blog piccas of those delicious meals next day or tnight ba. :)

Am damn bored cos everyone is having major meeting.

Fuzzy wazzy loves swimming not eating,

Fuzzy wazzy loves jogging but not slacking,

Fuzzy wazzy loves singging but not working,

Fuzzy wazzy loves catchhing up but not being alone,

Fuzzy wazzy loves shopping but not being broke!

LOL, guess thats my whole week events ba?

Sorry for the lameness. hhaa!

Ppl who do not know how to play fuzzy wazzy may know some clue from this. hha!

Sorry for being a spoiler cos its damn obvious. LOL!

Ciao~

Been thinking of the supid and stupid things i did suddenly,

and i feel like a bad woman. haha!

Anws, nobody is perfect so i think i just have to try forgive myself? haha.
Went swimming at jo's house with hy.

Its omq man, im like so tired. =,=

My last swim was sec 2? Excluding sentosa trip la. LOL!

Hy and jojo was so pro. T.T

i thought i will have muscle ache but miracuosly NO! haha, kwels. :>

And i want to say about a super "nice" taxi driver when homed.

Totally nice ttm~

Me and hy decided to go take taxi home cos its like 10.20pm alr.

there is still work tmr and we are like shag, ok mayb only me. louusy me. :x haha!

So we took a cab (Ps, 5 to 6 cabs passes by and we finally decided to take cab, how "lucky")

The uncle was quiet at first so me and hy was chatting like normal.

Then hy drop off first and i continue my ride.

THEN! the taxi driver start to do weird things,

he start singing at fm songs, i think its 9.33 ba.

I think its kinda weird but ignore,

suddenly! he ask me whats the lyrics man! so i was kind enuff to tell him.

It was anjing by S.H.E.

And he keep asking like hell, WHILE! driving more slowly.

Then he keep talk to me and even PRAISED that i know how to sing and know the lyrics. =.=

Meanwhile, he is getting slower and slower.

i find that something is wrong and tell him directions and totallly ignore him.

I still order him to ride faster.

BUT he got worse, omq! He stopped halfway when i was near my home and turn around to ask me who sing better in S.H.E?!?!?!

WHAT THE HELL, want cheat money only.

So i repeated and ask him to drive faster but he ignore me but turns back and start driving.

I didnt drop under my block but near and i thought its over.

But its not the end!! When we reach, he didnt stop the meter man!

He took out his coins slowly and return me after 20 cents have passed.

And of cos the 20 cents was accounted for by me. Rah. >:O

Damn pro man the driver. Worst taxi ride ever, or should i say the "nicest" taxi ride ever. FML.

So i took 9 bucks to reach home from Bukit Batok. LOL! =.=

Super ex, and ps, there is no peak hours ty.

The taxi driver is irritating but i know he just want to earn more budden not at the expense of a teenager ba?

So, taxi drivers, do this to managers/directors and CEO ok? LOL!

If they ever take taxi cos i suppose they would have thier own car? lol, but whatever the case its irritating~

Start work luh, ciao!

What a day ytd! But swimming was nice. :)

Love the girls and jo's family.

They were uber nice. (L)

Anyone sees anyone wearing socks with heels?

i think its kinda cool mans, not implemented in Singapore still eh?

Mood sucks big time now,

ciao.

Am motivated, will do it.

Yes i can.

Ciao~

Am lazy to tag in fb so shall post.

hope this kind soul save liao then upload fb. hahah! :)

Love you lots! (L) not my picture ogays.

Lousy phone camera, really need a cam. T.T

Nights! :)

Ps, sorry for blogging thrice a day. HAHA!

Okay, suddenly i feel like posting some pictures. ha!

i thought he's a korean cum american cos my friend once mention he's a korean.

But his name is huang xiao ming. so i guess he's a taiwan or hong kong-ese ba? LOL!

Tried finding nice zhen zi dan pictures but keep give old old de. so i think this poster is nice. hha!

i want watch! hahah!

HAHA, today my company president came to Singapore from US to visit visit.

Everyone is wearing like formal man. cool B-)

They are having meeting and so, im slacking. :P

So many angmos and they all talk with super strong eng accent man.

Like so nice t hear. kinda like listening to audio for hollywood movies. LOL!

Anw!!! Im so happy and proud of myself.

Finally did something useful other then typing compo in microsoft words....

I did a form for the company personnel to fill up!

You can like select and deselect or like type in but cant change other things.

Damn cool. :) Learn quite alot ever since i came in man. NICE. :>

Love to learn more things. hehe :3

Orights. talk about weekends since i haven been posting when exams are near. hehs.

Sat,

Woke up early morning to go for SAT exam. omq, was damn pissed otw there.

First, i waited the bus super duper long~~~~

Then, i rush there and guess what? I cant tap! 1st May is end of student card usage! LOL!

So, i went to the control station and asked if i can change to adult card.

And, that person tell me to go to the tix office. zzz the office weren't even open!!! Dots ttm!

Close liao still ask me go find tix office, funny or what. :/

SOOO, i wanted to go buy standard card. BUT! i no spare small cash! They only accept 2/5 bucks!

I only have like coins not even 2 bucks and ten bucks. DOTZZXZ.

So i went to the mrt provision shop wanted to buy a bread and get some small cash.

GUESS WHAT? No bread. how greats. so i took m&m and got spare cash. Phew.

What a starting, but lucky i had some spare time to rest and chill in mrt to buona vista.

Met nic and leslie and went ac tgt. Damn warm man, was like sweating cos we walk to the school instead of taking bus. haha!

Well, SAT was ok but i did stupid things which i dont feel like elaborating or else it will be damn long.

So cut short : "Good luck and hope my guesses are all correct and i'll score. :)"

LOL!

Then went plaza sing to watch IPMAN2, it was thumbs up man. all the fightings and storyline. Omqxzxz, total (L). haha!

I literally covered my face cos the punches make me feel so pain. like some idiots but its real!

I heard that the hong shifu really went hospital cos they make the punches real.

Omqxzxz. :( Hope he's fine man.

Huang Xiao Ming is shuai dao~~~ B-) Loves. lol!

To be short, its a nice show. :):):)

Must go watch!

Sun,

Met gary kc and Sq to town. Quite funny cos,

we started off w sentosa, then decided to go kiting to marina but on sat we decided to go town walk walk. hahha!

But was fun man! whee. :D a new experience for me siol. (inside things)

Went sakae sushi at wisma. (Ps, the service totally sucks man. zzz)

Talked and crap super alot. nice day with them. hehe, awaiting to sing k w kc and Sq. :)

Too bad fanny cant join us. :( But k singing you must join k? (L)

Walked alot, eat alot, camwhored alot and crap alot, Think alot too. hahaha!

A nice weekend ends off just like that once again. Thanks to end of SAT exams. LOL!

Anw, i feel like buying Sq's fujibaby mans. the photos are like so nice. omq.

got any recommendations? :o

I want Monga, monga, monga w religion friends. :):):)

Zhao you ting and ruan jing tian. Melts. hahaha!

Ciao! couldnt go greenpoppies w fanny tday :( so shall go run.

(ps, orange with carrot is super yum!)